Hey! Long time since I published anything on my blog- and I must confess i have written a few times, just never posted it..well that may seem like mindless blabber, but i have got a good reason that may perhaps interest a few of you!

Why is it that as we move forward in life everyday we find ourselves clinging more and more to who we have become instead of who we want to be? even though everyday we want to move apart, start afresh or at the least change a few things.. we find it hard to break the mold of our lives? Why does it always look like their is so much to lose? why is life so burdensome anyways?

i mean just about this blog, its always just been a mode of expression for me- i write it because i like to...but suddenly now less than a year into my job, as everyday i am expected to be mature and professional, this tiny speck of my human personal side look like too much exposure? I also always thought this is absurd right?!? but look around you and you will see the dearth of truthful expression!

i mean, whats with becoming more and more of who you are everyday when you dont even like it? i have always loved writing and i confess I still dont know what is that one subject i could be interested in forever..so I write what you see here...ur free to judge!

Why are we to preserve our image? To behave as expected..in line with our peers? How many of you really feel free- like not when you are with your buddies..but really free to choose always..And not be ashamed to admit it before anyone? Whats all the sham about? We have but one short life to live!

Life has been adventurous lately- professionally, personally and even as a bystander to the ongoings in the world. the world over, the recent recession has shook livelihoods, aspirations and many lives. And to be a part of this major churn and be unaffected is unlikely though undoubtedly lucky.

As a fresh graduate, to enter the ballooning and highly talented Indian workforce right now, is professionally challenging- where the hope to take the world by storm has been replaced with a determination to lie low, learn & hang in there. Personally, i am going through unrestful yet happy times- but as a human 'change' is unsettling, even when its for the good.

But well, all this is just my personal saga- the I being a humble speck of existence in a world that is ever encompassed in an amalgamation of joy, misery and well, emotion!

Globalisation is a good thing, and its done a world of good to us Indians- Indian growth has been on a never before trajectory and millions of Indians would swear by it. But the coupling is now showing the cracks as the US recession seeps across the world. India has been hit by the wave too- we are down but not out!

Blooming in Nothingness

i have juust finished my Mba and now am on a sabattical at home till my joining date for the job. What a lovely emptiness it is- two months without an agenda, worry or hope! Doing nothing but relaxing..a time when even reading for pleasure is an accomplishment

To have a dream worth living for...

I hope, I believe and therefore, I dream.

Dreams that hold my self together, dreams that are distant yet surreal. Dreams that make life worth living. The dreams I am in no hurry to live, the dreams that I enjoy inching slowly towards- feeling more alive, more human all the way.
I believe in such dreams- my wide eyed hopes of paradise. that one stroke on my life's canvas which will make it complete. The dream that is such a passion, it becomes religion- i becomes your existence.
I long for such a dream..a thought, a hope that resonates in my soul and reverberates my existence.
I am a dreamer but alas! a human first. A constant submission to the demands of never satiating human desire has left me wanting of that dream- that purpose. The crux of my existence is missing-that one passion for which I will give up myself.
I wonder often whether its just me, or the human race at large which is truly purposeless or temporarily holidaying at best! Where's my dream????